Let me tell you what I was doing to myself.... I had a holistic health centre for about 2.5 years and it was such a joy. I had tons of new friends and people coming and going and using the centre. I did yoga (taught) a few times a week there so saw pregnant mammas and young babies and new moms and everyone in between. I rented the space out to a dance instructor and enroled my own dauhter and saw how busy and loved the place was by others as well.
|Success for YOU is your OWN definition. Nobody else's.|
After listening to this podcast I came to some very interesting and attitude-altering realizations. I was nearly in tears and felt it hard to breathe on one hand but lighter on the other.
I didn't believe in failure, right? Nope. I was wrong. Apparently, I believed it for everyone else, except myself. I would never tell anyone, adult or child that they failed. Especially my own child. I know how that feels and it doens't have a place in my lovely life. But, my goal for my precious centre was to make a living and keep it... forever, I guess. I don't really know where those goals came from. Considering I have construction husband, those goals are very unrealistic, and then there's the fact that the area where I live isn't very 'holistic friendly'.
According to Kristanne, in her podcast, my first goal would be to forgive myself. So, I did. That's where the near-tears and extra effort to breathe came in ;-). Then, I reset my goals. More realistic goals... I made life-long friends, opening a holistic health centre was a dream and was accomplished for 2.5 wonderful years, I successfully inspired others with yoga and meditation, and it was an amazing experience and memory. Was it a success?? YES. Most definitely. It was too late to change the way I responded until right now so the next step was to re-evaluate the plan and take the best from the experience.
The new plan..?? Continue to inspire others with blogging and be an example with my vegan and minimalist-minded lifestyle. To love my life, have balance, rescue animals, make my home not only a sanctuary to animals but also to my husband and daughter.
Speaking of minimalism.. there's another way that I tend to beat myself up. I want my home to be, not really a show-house, that wouldn't be possible with 20 living beings inside (we have a sanctuary remember). But I want it close. Unrealistically close. I need to step back from that unrealistic goal and take it slower. Get inspired to do a little at a time. Today, my upstairs looks and smells amazing. Today, I added several things to the giveaway bag. I gathered some books that I used to sell with the plan to donate them to my daughter's teacher. A wonderful teacher who gave my daughter a pair of skates with nothing expected in return. A wonderful person who took the time to watch my daughter skate, for the first time, and encourage her.
One step at a time. Today... definitely a SUCCESS.
How to Succeed When You Fail - by Kristianne Wargo from Podcast #599 Create Your Now.