Monday, July 23, 2018

Sorting Out Some Feelings





I went for a walk and sorted out some feelings today. I'm feeling better about the situation, and thought I would share some of the lovely photos of my walk... along with my thoughts. I hope that it might help someone else going through a life change.






The journey begins 





At first, I was feeling quite down and like a failure at the dreams that I've 'lost', such as: in my childhood I wanted to be a teacher or stay at home and be a homemaker. As an adult I wanted to work in the holistic field. I've done all those and instead of thinking of them as a loss or failure I now think of them as experiences that I wanted and did. I can check them off my list! More like, yay me... look at my accomplishments!! Look at the adventures I've wanted and actually did in my life, so far. 






A tiny frog, smaller than my thumb nail. 




As a matter of fact, as I look back now, I can't see myself teaching yoga again or doing anything in the holistic health field. Likely, in a couple years, I'll look back at being a homemaker and shudder at the lack of independence and adult contact I had.






Beautful wild flowers on the trail 




So, now that I'm not beating myself up anymore and am not so much mourning the loss of family time and a great 10+ years with my home and dependents, I'll try to focus on the next adventure. I have a love of the outdoors and minimalism and adventure/experiences. I hope that within the next few weeks something jumps out at me and says THIS is your next amazing adventure! 








A wild rabbit on the way home 








#lifechanges #positivethinking #patchoulimoon #vegankim 

Wednesday, April 25, 2018

People Making Assumptions (Part 2)


If you missed 'Assumptions Part 1' HERE it is. One of my biggest issues is people judging me for what I do. No matter what I do, there seems to be judgement. Society is so stuck on what we do for a living, or not. It really doesn't tell if we are a good person or not so who cares??

I may have finally make peace with that..

I had to thank my Higher Power for her guidance last night.

I was obsessing about people judging me for being a SAHM but I know what they think is none of my business.  I can't control their prejudices. I can only control ME. Maybe I'm annoyed with myself for relapsing in JADE (justify, argue, defend, explain). For defending my choices. They are not making me feel anything, that's already in there or I wouldn't be caught up in it.

All I need to say is that yes I stay home but I cannot squeeze one more thing into my life without dropping a priority. Period. No JADE. No engagement in their judgement, prejudices or negativity.

What do I do?? I make intentional life choices. 🖤

Thanks for reading. Do you feel unsettled by judgements? If so, I hope this helps.
Be blessed,
Kim xx


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